I have a history of depression years ago due to family issues. Its just the past 2months my LO is 7months and i just cant cope. LO is being really cranky all the time and everyone is always in his face so hes depending on this attention and when its just me im not enough? I feel like im just not good enough and he prefers other people and would rather they were his mum. I dont have any friends my age im 19 iv got a mum whos 30 odd who had a baby in may and shes lovely but no friend friends who i can just phone and chat too. I just feel like im loosing control and i think i might go the doctors but is medication really the right way to go? god im just so confused i want to be the best mum i can be and i just feel like im not :(
Any help or should i go the doctors?

Wow - you have just described my daughter who I am trying to get to seek help. Her daughter is nearly 2 and she feels the same as you do - please go to you rdr and tell them how you feel - there is no harm in that at all.

I am no expert but I would say it sounds like a lot could be cured by feeling less lonely. Loneliness and isolation are lonelinss and isolation, not necessarily PND! although they can be a feature, and they do not help.

Lets say you were surrounded by others your age: you had people on the end of the phone and you socialised as much as you wanted with other 19yr olds and their babies. How does the thought of that make you feel?

As for your 7mo old...the reality will be at this young age that you and your close family e.g husband/ whatever, are all he needs. Never mind how down on yourself you are :) - your baby cannot judge that you are less exciting or less important than anyone else - he simply doesnt have that capacity.

Plus, remember that it's easy for other people to give him all the time and attention that THEY are willing to give. It would be a different story if they had him full time, as you do. So do not judge yourself by the behaviour of others who have more time and distance from the baby than you do.

I think you need to take a step back and know you are the baby's mum and therefore the most important person in his life - you're the decision maker, the love giver and the one in charge. Everyone else's involvement with the baby comes through YOU (and your partner of course)! Secondly, you need to prioritise opportunities to meet people like you - probably your MW or local baby group can put you in touch - or try FB, or even the local caff and chat to A.N.Other new mum.

I'm not saying you shouldnt go to the doctor. I'm just saying: if you could do the above would it help?